Just because I laugh, doesn’t mean I’m happy. Just bacause I don’t cry, doesn’t mean I’m not sad. 

Maybe I should vanish for a while, just because this world is sickening and I’ve enough of it. Friends who double-crossed, friends who are superficial, friends who are insincere, friends who doesn’t even give a shit, friends who are so selfish and all they have is their selves - these friends I don’t need any of them. I shall only hold true ones close to my heart.

And all these left me thinking, why should I even bother presenting my true self. Maybe a public self would be ideal in this situation, I have to protect my own self interest. Because all that I’ve got, and it has come to my senses, is that I’ve been treated with selfishness, heartlessness and cruelty. 

My kindness has been abused. I need them back for myself. If you think that I’ve changed, I can tell you now, I really have. This change will make me into a better person - in treating myself better, in trying to make myself genuinely happier, doing things not to please others. I shall live for myself more, I shan’t be giving others more. No more. 

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